4 ianuarie 2011

Analiza si emotia descoperirii...


Deschid ochii, si cateodata e dimineata. Cateodata e si frig, dar imi pun hanoracul sau puloverul preferat si merg sa imi fac o cana cu ceai sau cafea pe care uneori o beau, fumand o tigara, langa fereastra de la bucatarie.Intotdeauna mi-a placut vederea dinspre bucatarie desi am balcon si la sufragerie si la camera mea.Stau si ma uit pe geam, la cat de mult continua sa se schimbe lucrurile, locurile si cladirile din zona. Si atunci ii vad. Ma uit la ei, cum umbla, bezmetici si debusolati, intotdeauna grabiti si captivati de material, de o anumita valoare, discutii despre lucruri uneori utile dar supraevaluate, prostie..multa prostie, ignoranta..jale. Durere cum nu se poate.
Cum sa nu doara cand e atat de simplu sa fi fericit si multi uita asta? Cand mergi pe strada si te uiti in ochii unui batran care iti zambeste, cand vezi un copil frumos, cand ai un prieten langa tine, cand iese soarele, sau vezi de ziua ta doua curcubee, cand stai in ploaie pe acoperis, cand canti, plimbandu-va si el te tine de mana, cand te plimbi cu talpile goale prin iarba sau nisip, cand ti se pun flori in par, cand vezi un rasarit de soare pe un deal, intre spice de grau...e atat de usor sa fi fericit..

Despre iubitele mele, noi si vechi si prafuite...


Atunci cand vreau sa uit, sa ma pierd, sa ies din realitate, sa scap, sa fug, sa mor, sa iubesc, sa urasc, sa plang,sa traiesc, cand ma doare...citesc. E minunat cum poti arunca o privire in lumea unui om pe care nu il cunosti deloc, dar care are puterea de a te fascina in nenumarate feluri. Imi amintesc, de cand eram copil tata imi spunea, pe un ton aproape dezamagit..."pune mana pe-o carte, ai ditamai biblioteca,ticsita..nu mai sta atata cu ochii in televizor.."
Am inceput sa inteleg...mai tarziu, ce-i drept, dar am inceput sa inteleg. Sunt mii de lumi care asteapta sa fie descoperite, cercetate....si noi uitam de ele..
Am descoperit tehnologia, luxul si confortul care o insotesc, dar refuz sa uit cat de bine ma simt dupa ce termin o carte, pot spune "Azi am aflat povestea cuiva.." . Curiozitatea imi cere asta. Sa aflu, sa stiu, sa cunosc cat mai mult despre orice trece prin filtrul personal si devine interesant intr-un fel sau altul.
M-am regasit, putin cate putin, in fiecare personaj despre care am citit si mi-a placut ideea ca sunt un om suficient de complex incat sa simt asta. Am invatat despre dragoste, ura, indiferenta,durere, cruzime, pasiune si multe altele in diferitele lor forme, am descoperit emotii despre care nu stiam aproape nimic, am explorat diverse realitati, irealitati si identitati...Am inchis cartea, am deschis ochii si am avut o alta perspectiva.M-am simtit bogata. Si intr-adevar, cum spun tatal meu si tatal lui, un om citit e un om bogat...

15 decembrie 2010

Inside, now...



Please don't let this turn into something it's not
I can only give you everything I've got
I can't be as sorry as you think I should
But I still love you more than anyone else could

All that I keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right
This splintered mast I'm holding on won't save me long
Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I have ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

We have got through so much worse than this before
What's so different this time that you can't ignore
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I have ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I have ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness [x2]

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness [x2]

5 decembrie 2010

...show me how defenseless you really are....




Crowded streets are cleared away
One by one
Hollow heroes separate
As they run

You're so cold
Keep your hand in mine
Wise men wonder while strong men die

Show me it ends, it's alright
Show me how defenseless you really are
Satisfied an empty inside
Well that's alright
Let's give this another try

If you find your family
Don't you cry
In this land of make believe
Dead and dry
You're so cold
but you feel alive
Lay your hand on me
One last time

Show me how it ends, It's alright
Show me how defenseless you really are
Satisfied and empty inside
Well that's alright
Let's give this another try...

Show me how it ends, It's alright
Show me how defenseless you really are
Satisfied and empty inside
Well that's alright
Let's give this another try...

13 noiembrie 2010

...without fear...

Am gasit piesa cand ma uitam la 'Bones',la episodul 20 din primul sezon...m-au prins versurile..my new 'stay in with a cup of tea' evening tune.. enjoy!




I was born to laugh,
I learned to laugh through my tears,
I was born to love,
I'm gonna learn to love without fear...

Pour me a glass of wine,
Talk deep into the night
Who knows what we'll find..?

Intuition, deja vu,
The Holy Ghost haunting you
Whatever you got,
I don't mind

Put your elbows on the table
I'll listen long as I am able
There's nowhere I'd rather be

Secret fears, the supernatural
Thank God for this new laughter
Thank God the joke's on me

We've seen the landfill rainbow
We've seen the junkyard of love
Baby it's no place for you and me

I was born to laugh
I learned to laugh through my tears
I was born to love
I'm gonna learn to love without fear ....

31 mai 2010

in curand....

Poze de la Hair & Make-Up Fest 2010!

13 aprilie 2010